Re: Correlation with OCD
When I was younger I had some habits. Whenever I did something with one hand, I often had to mimic it with the other as I found it very uncomfortable to feel a sense of touch on one side, but not the other. Also, I often had to smell things, I think, and repeatedly. I can relate to excessive washing of hands as well.
I remember that I fairly recently (I'm not sure which time frame this is, but I guess around 5-7 years ago) had several episodes where I had problems sleeping as I was, while laying in bed, overtly conscious on the fact that I had to close my eyes for the last time before the day was over. I was having an internal monologue with myself over which eyelid "shut" that where to be my last, which could cause excess blinking. The reason I mention this is because I think it's related to a current habit of mine (one that have lasted for a good 2-3 years I think). It started with the same thing, only that this time it was my voice. Being overtly conscious on which sound (from my vocal chords) that where to be the last for the day. I think it escalated, and now I often find myself having to make a sound, similar to the one you'd make if you in conversation reply "hmm", only not so loud (it's not easily noticeable when I do it I think). I'm pretty sure I do it more often when I'm stressed, or troubled. I want to quit doing it however. I'm tired of that habit now.
"When I composed that, I was conscious of being inspired by God Almighty. Do you think I can consider your puny little fiddle when He speaks to me?"
Ludwig van Beethoven to a violinist who complained that a passage was unplayable