I dunno. I flip personas a bit. Not out of some need to manipulate, but from genuine internal drives interacting with how I perceive my reception. In this case my fear of being wrong or being seen as wrong is absent, so I gladly let go of the otherwise tight grip on my information intake. Hmm... Interesting that it's observable by others.
It's the opposite of motivated. I'm procrastinating. Influential? Just more pushy I think. That happens when I'm within a context in which anxieties settle down. I swing from reluctant partaker to controlling jerk :^)
Interestingly enough, from a relatively young age I've had this idea of an open grassland with a single tree at its center as a place of withdrawal and reflection. Though, my landscape usually had vivid colors as to compensate for them in real life.
Interesting to hear your response, it's useful to me in future musings and interactions with people.