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  1. I Tried To Kill Myself

    When did my thread become aggressive :<
  2. I Tried To Kill Myself

    Hey Viqing dont worry the thread is staying alive much longer than expected so anything goes. I don't have any answers for you right now. But know that it is not awkward, we don't think badly of you and paranoia is the most fucked up thing to have (I have it and I can tell you have it... don't...
  3. I dont want to be found anymore :) You can be my companion if you understand

    I dont want to be found anymore :) You can be my companion if you understand
  4. Maintaining friendships

    I have got in trouble with a few friends for not "keeping in touch". I dunno, I think they get frustrated with my emotional distance and inability to call or text. I have a couple really close friends and I enjoy their company. They find me quite quirky because I don't ever say hi or goodbye. It...
  5. I Tried To Kill Myself

    Yea thats why categorising so much of the natural difference between people's POVs into "disorders" and "illness" dissappoints me. I can see why one might wish to call someone ill or say they arnt thinking straight etc. if they don't actually understand what the person with the "disorder" is...
  6. I Tried To Kill Myself

    @7even Yea well I don't get baked more than once or twice a week. 60% of the time its 0 times a week... every time (well done if you get the reference). And I don't drink alcohol at all. Soberness is my default state 90% of my life. MJ is something I do now and again to change states for a...
  7. Sad / depressive songs?

    @7even sure, I can do that. Quoting them to avoid full linking. Classical (not sure the technique/style is quite right but still...): Post rock: dnb: Indie isn't really a genre but: also: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-m2B5JsiO9c and seeing as I am going full out I gotta post...
  8. I Tried To Kill Myself

    I know that was probably a joke but as a social question do you really think people who are mentally ill have less to contribute? Not trying to sound mean, I am genuinely just curious about it. Always good to know how things are percieved "on the other side" as it were. Also I love how in day to...
  9. Sad / depressive songs?

    Extraterrestrial What kind of sad music do you like anyway? By genre. Cause I got sad songs to sell ya from anything from classical to post rock to dnb to indie :)
  10. Sad / depressive songs?

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PxFwAmYuYds and Blood - The middle east is wonderful.
  11. Oddities

    This kind of links in with the blurting out things out of context. When conversing with people I tend to lead on to conclusions of the topic in my own head, and assume that everyone else around me is also reaching the same conclusions. In reality all that happens is that from a topic like "I...
  12. I Tried To Kill Myself

    @Velo Yes well put, very understandable. Hah yes this is totally true, can understand. As a child my parents really pressured me to keep the musical instruments going. I used to have tantrums, terrible screaming. Perfectionism was even worse as a child; in practice you discover your mistakes...
  13. I Tried To Kill Myself

    Hate to say it but the suicide wasn't for attention. I don't know what would have happened if someone hadn't walked in. I don't really like attention anyway, even in these kind of situations. But as I say even though it was a genuine attempt I was also in a stupor, and never felt quite right...
  14. I Tried To Kill Myself

    I'll just go get my blonde wig and that'll pretty much be an accurate depiction of what will happen :rolleyes: I'm curious as to how you use engineering/science in an emotional way... Magpie: Thanks, I did need more clarification on antidepressants and medication. Honestly the leaflets on the...
  15. I Tried To Kill Myself

    I actually have a diploma in viola (and same level on violin of course). And used to play in the UK's NYO. I can't believe I have ignored music as an outlet during this period of time. I actually love picking up the viola and just making something new without thinking about it or following a...
  16. Piggy

    Also I never got over the fact the book was totally fiction, and really did not represent what would occur if such an event were to happen in real life (the event being some boys being stranded on an island). Seemed like controversy for the sake of controversy. I wouldn't take it as an accurate...
  17. Piggy

    God I remember reading LoTF when I was 14-15 for school, which is probably why I hated it. I should pick it up again but from what I remember he was a sort of 'warning' character. In the sense that he possessed specific traits that one might do best to avoid. I loved how he linked in with the...
  18. I Tried To Kill Myself

    I'm not going to quote your whole post Duxwing but wow. Even though I regularly frustrate myself by twisting 'logic' to my own needs, I have to say that that was a good read. And even though I had to read it twice it was comprehendable. Yes the emotional sludge is still here, and I don't know...
  19. I Tried To Kill Myself

    Just so you know, you don't need to be worried about how you come across to me. I understand the context and I understand the bitterness. Although you need not feel bitter at all. Im gonna go graffiti things in wierd places.
  20. I Tried To Kill Myself

    I am too broken to feel scared anymore. If I was in Queensland I would still be up for that. I think one of the main things serial killers enjoy in their victims is the fear. I wouldn't be fearing death anyway. Hell often I would welcome it so there would be no use in killing me. What...
  21. I Tried To Kill Myself

    Agh I left the thead too long and it died :< Anyway, I might as well say thankyou to all of you who posted. I use the word a lot but I appreciate it. And Cognisant, I have always thought crazy is better than normal, your ideas fascinate me. Scary, but the fear is overpowered by the fascinating...
  22. I Tried To Kill Myself

    Unfortunately I live in the UK. In all seriousness though, if I lived in Queensland I would absolutely go for it. Without a doubt. Sounds like exactly what I need.
  23. I Tried To Kill Myself

    I really really understand. I hope you know how much I understand that feeling: When many thoughts come into view frantically but are so fleeting that they can't be processed fast enough. But yea I don't really have a way to process all these thoughts, I think I should try writing. But for a...
  24. I Tried To Kill Myself

    But you would consider it after having kids? (probably not, but if you implied that in your phrasing I would be interested in you continuing) I can't really take procreation as a true purpose though. It seems so mundane and easily achievable that it holds little value to me. I agree that self...
  25. I Tried To Kill Myself

    I am curious as to where you are going with this :)
  26. I Tried To Kill Myself

    Carl Sagan says something similar: "We are a way for the cosmos to know itself" which is a beautiful thing. Sagan always makes me feel a bit better actually.
  27. I Tried To Kill Myself

    I have spent a lot of time really trying to comprehend this point, and I really do understand it well now. I know that the inherent meaningless of our tiny, tiny lives can tend itself to great personal motivation and intrinsic value. But there is a duality to the idea as well. At the same time I...
  28. I Tried To Kill Myself

    And as everyone knows if you bump something once you have to do it again for good luck.
  29. I Tried To Kill Myself

    Also if bumping works then bump. If it doesn't/is frowned upon then pretend I didn't bump it.
  30. I Tried To Kill Myself

    (I'm new here, hello) Hope this is the right category to post, someone tell me if it ain't. Also sorry if I ramble. I can never tell what I should put in posts and what I should type and then delete. Like what I just wrote. Anyway. Have you ever been in a depressive 'stupor'? Like to the point...
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