WALKYRIA
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hi people I have one uncomfortable question to ask :
Why does intelligence smells irrelevant to me right now? Is it becoz I lack of it so deeply or just that i might be right?
I know this might stem from my nihilism... but i sense that people always want to be right, always want to fight for their egos and I used to be like that actually, argumentative.. me I MY, why ? I experienced one of the most radically changing(the most actually) experience in my life recently- you should try-; Basically i took all my shortcomings/weaknesses and lived according to them in order to grow... I forgot all my strengths. I chose all the difficult things to me in order to grow and to experience "the others experiences of life", I was lacking empathy so bad that in order to grow and to connect with humanity back... well I had to think like them, those who I saw like the populace. Deep inside I knew that I coulndt be that more intelligent, why would I be; I knew that the probability of me being the most intelligent was inferior to the one of me being biaised in my thoughts... After the experience, after feeling down, being depressed and other complicated things.. I realised for the first time I could potentially be in danger, I couldnt afford anything I wanted whenever I wanted, and I aknowledged something I couldnt back then; that The world as a whole could potentially be stronger, more intelligent than me.
It kinda feels good to take off of our shoulders the burden to accomplish big things, now I now that to live or survive is my sole need and purpose.
But, I sense I lost something that was important to me back then : The need to be always right. Corollary to that sadly, I don't value myself as more or less intelligent nor do I value the other through the subjective lens of intelligence anymore... I just found people who try to argue about their higher intelligence pathetic and insecure. On my way to spiritual growth, I found that intelligence wasnt the big deal really, and that felt really good to find out that It wanst necessary for me to always win arguments over people... That sometimes "weaker" people had the right to enjoy the feeling of "being right" too sometimes.
So here I am, a new man, more empathic, more gentle... lending a bit more towards INFP/INFJ but definitly still an INTP(or maybe not who knows!) and basically, I find all the concept of "intelligence" just plain bullshit and Irrelevant. I think it's a manipulation from society. I think it's the toxic nutrient to the needy ego/ souls of everyone(who doesn't want to be intelligent in this world? ), a nutrient that pushes us to be insecure, competitive and aggressive.
SO tell me INTP: how do you value intelligence knowing that as religion it's a blurry concept who can't be direcetly proven by any scientifical measure ? Is it as important as it used to be while younger in your inner system ? How did the transformation occur ?
PS: don't get me wrong, I'm not militating for dumbness here or implying that I'm unintelligent. Just that there is somthing bigger than intelligence to fight for... in the current state of our world, now !
Thanx
Why does intelligence smells irrelevant to me right now? Is it becoz I lack of it so deeply or just that i might be right?
I know this might stem from my nihilism... but i sense that people always want to be right, always want to fight for their egos and I used to be like that actually, argumentative.. me I MY, why ? I experienced one of the most radically changing(the most actually) experience in my life recently- you should try-; Basically i took all my shortcomings/weaknesses and lived according to them in order to grow... I forgot all my strengths. I chose all the difficult things to me in order to grow and to experience "the others experiences of life", I was lacking empathy so bad that in order to grow and to connect with humanity back... well I had to think like them, those who I saw like the populace. Deep inside I knew that I coulndt be that more intelligent, why would I be; I knew that the probability of me being the most intelligent was inferior to the one of me being biaised in my thoughts... After the experience, after feeling down, being depressed and other complicated things.. I realised for the first time I could potentially be in danger, I couldnt afford anything I wanted whenever I wanted, and I aknowledged something I couldnt back then; that The world as a whole could potentially be stronger, more intelligent than me.
It kinda feels good to take off of our shoulders the burden to accomplish big things, now I now that to live or survive is my sole need and purpose.
But, I sense I lost something that was important to me back then : The need to be always right. Corollary to that sadly, I don't value myself as more or less intelligent nor do I value the other through the subjective lens of intelligence anymore... I just found people who try to argue about their higher intelligence pathetic and insecure. On my way to spiritual growth, I found that intelligence wasnt the big deal really, and that felt really good to find out that It wanst necessary for me to always win arguments over people... That sometimes "weaker" people had the right to enjoy the feeling of "being right" too sometimes.
So here I am, a new man, more empathic, more gentle... lending a bit more towards INFP/INFJ but definitly still an INTP(or maybe not who knows!) and basically, I find all the concept of "intelligence" just plain bullshit and Irrelevant. I think it's a manipulation from society. I think it's the toxic nutrient to the needy ego/ souls of everyone(who doesn't want to be intelligent in this world? ), a nutrient that pushes us to be insecure, competitive and aggressive.
SO tell me INTP: how do you value intelligence knowing that as religion it's a blurry concept who can't be direcetly proven by any scientifical measure ? Is it as important as it used to be while younger in your inner system ? How did the transformation occur ?
PS: don't get me wrong, I'm not militating for dumbness here or implying that I'm unintelligent. Just that there is somthing bigger than intelligence to fight for... in the current state of our world, now !
Thanx