Dark times my friend.Forgot to sedate myself with whiskey before going to bed
Understandable, we all have horrible thoughts but behaviour is the defining quality.My mother had a severe stroke a year back. The stroke has left most of her body paralyzed. It has also left her with great difficulties communicating: She can't speak, but she occasionally nods her head in response to questions (but she does not seem to understand the questions asked of her very well, or at all in some cases). She points her left hand at things she wants and screams when she is in pain (and the latter happens really really often). So what is my dark thought? I sometimes wish she had died from that stroke instead of this.
To add to this anytime a old person gives me a handshake, or I need to get past them to grab an item, or even old relatives that hug me I feel like I'm sacrificing a part of my health: I read a study quite a while ago saying that early-onset dementia in youth can be triggered by salivation from old people, in other words it is not necessarily bound by age. In posting this I tried to check my sources there and couldn't find anything concrete so I'm optimistic I can eliminate this fear. I started thinking of the interactions vampirically: their brains lighting up at social interaction, while transmitting diseases through kissing young children and such. It was fucked up I gotta say. Imagine if the whole world became captivated by this reasoning, it'd be a precedent for genocide. Now that's truly fucked up. Dangerous thoughts.I don't like old people. I just don't speak their language, man.
but it's probably just due to the fact that most people are boring as hell and that becomes even more pronounced as they get older.
edit: tbh I don't know wtf I'm saying, I just wanted to say something negative
That sounds like major league horse shit. The health care industry would let it be known if it were true. But yeah I think there is a class old people that feast on flesh and souls of the youth.I read a study quite a while ago saying that early-onset dementia in youth can be triggered by salivation from old people, in other words it is not necessarily bound by age.
My grandfather also had a stroke attack 6 years ago, he already had severe diabetes and Alzheimer, he could barely walk and his feet was so swollen he needed a cane, he also couldn't articulate words very well, sometimes using hand gesture, he also spontaneously cried from time to time, when it happened he was in the shower (A helper was showering him), cracked his head, by the time he was in the hospital we has completely paralyzed, he ended up in a come for 6 weeks, the last 2 he spent being strapped to a respirator, the choice to pull the plug on the life support completely devastate my mother. I also have the same opinion.My mother had a severe stroke a year back. The stroke has left most of her body paralyzed. It has also left her with great difficulties communicating: She can't speak, but she occasionally nods her head in response to questions (but she does not seem to understand the questions asked of her very well, or at all in some cases). She points her left hand at things she wants and screams when she is in pain (and the latter happens really really often). So what is my dark thought? I sometimes wish she had died from that stroke instead of this.
The problem with that attitude, is that it doesnt work well. I naturally would choose to use brute force too, but in most cases, diplomacy actually works better. People create a lawless zone, call it chaz, people who think they are doing good come along, little do they know, there are some real evil people coming with them. You could say,if i could commit genocide against stupid people-conformists i probably would. most likely SJs
is there anything worse than death a human can suffer?
there is already hired hitmen on the darknet.
Makes you wonder what the solution to a hospital would be. Perhaps a more natural life, filled with dangerous activities. Simple things like hiking, using hand tools, can certainly end your life.. getting old beyond autonomy is a terrible way to goI think in hospitals at least they keep you drugged enough out of your gourd that you don't fight or fear the process; provided the nurse isn't pinching your opiates.
Stress always has been a tool for growth. But the 'what doesn't kill makes you stronger' mentality is deeply flawed. Stress should be applied over time and with ample opportunity to recover. Stories of people that are successful who came from a history of trauma are far and few between despite journalistic presentation of them. Most who experience unbearable amounts of stress over a short time suffer from debilitating/disadvantageous mental distortions.In a way, simply allowing others to suffer, in the hopes they'll learn better from their own negligence rather than attempting to help them. As has become unfortunately apparent, many people seem to find the greatest growth upon overcoming deep hardship. I'll coin I might feel a sort of "morbid joy" to see others going through dark issues, seeing if they can overcome on their own, learn or deteriorate, and possibly become more insightful or interesting due to it.
Identity is something we can choose to have outside social constructs if we turn inward and generate from within. Meaning is simply balancing, finding the center. Objective meaning is understanding where this center is. Mostly it starts with the interlocutor. The interlocutor set boundaries between the participant being centers of communication and the balance is the center of all centers.Very little of myself, I realized, was determined by anything other than external experiences and various acquired social constructs. "I" was virtually nothing but a vague concept.
So on what basis, through what lens, should I think or view anything at all.
Could such a thing as objective meaning really exist.