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This is just a documentation of my experiences with amphetamine and my observance of how it effects an INTP, positively, negatively, and neutrally..
I must make a note that most of these experiences brush over adderall, which is a racemic amphetamine mix, although in the favor of the D-isomer (71%) the effects include, to a lesser extent, the L-isomer, which has similar but noticeably different qualities than the D-isomer. Dexedrine is purely the D-isomer, so there will be somewhat of a difference in effect on the INTP, although seemingly insignificant to the less analytical, than the effects of Adderall.
Making decisions... Well, making a choice while on adderall seems to come much easier than otherwise. And the choice I've made is one I'm confident about. My thought is that this is the effect of Amphetamine on the Dopamine receptors, the reward chemical, as dopamine has been referred to,, I'm rewarded, so to say, for making the decision I made. This was evident in the classroom on several occasions. Whereas usually I'd sit aside from group interaction that required judgmental decision making, I could think through possibilities much swifter and come up with an acceptable outcome sooner and more confidently... Usually I would think of an option, then consider what the blowback of that option would be, then neglect to take that option due to fear that I may not be able to come up with a solution to the blowback that my decision made. With amphetamine, I could quickly choose the option that would, in my eyes, bring the most benefit with the fewest negative results, and still continue to have the energy and mental fortitude to continue that process for the remainder of class.
Confidence and sociability.. Now this comes to work wonders in social settings. I can remember back to one night at a friends after taking a meager dose of amph, there were some girls over that I hadn't been acquainted with yet. I initiated and maintained a conversation with a girl that I'd never seen before, that's not an easy task for me. But I got her number, walked her home and dated for a couple weeks after. The confidence boost was another thing that was revealed in the classroom.. You see, I'm the type that sits quietly and nervously in his desk, trapped in his head and hoping the teacher doesn't put a spotlight on me, the type that gets blank looks and awkward silence when I say something that the class hears. However, doses of amphetamine, and I'm a social machine, saying things that are on my mind without hesitation or regret. For an INTP, it can be a blessing to let out knowledge in a way that can be understood to many, and receive praise for it. Usually I'd stutter and rethink things when trying to talk about smart stuff to a group of people.
Negative... We like to focus on what captures our interest. Well, amphetamine gives you like 10x that focus. It can be great for obtaining gratuitous amounts of knowledge in one sitting, but when you finally look up from whatever you're attention is on and notice that enough time has gone by that the happenings around you are different, it can be weird. In a blue collar work environment that involves multiple tasks, I find it to be annoying. And also when you're getting in depth into an article on your smart phone while carelessly walking into traffic...
Appetite, sleep, mood...
Eh, fuck it, I'm too lazy to continue, I'll finish the rest and add extra comments whenever I feel like it, goodnight.
I must make a note that most of these experiences brush over adderall, which is a racemic amphetamine mix, although in the favor of the D-isomer (71%) the effects include, to a lesser extent, the L-isomer, which has similar but noticeably different qualities than the D-isomer. Dexedrine is purely the D-isomer, so there will be somewhat of a difference in effect on the INTP, although seemingly insignificant to the less analytical, than the effects of Adderall.
Making decisions... Well, making a choice while on adderall seems to come much easier than otherwise. And the choice I've made is one I'm confident about. My thought is that this is the effect of Amphetamine on the Dopamine receptors, the reward chemical, as dopamine has been referred to,, I'm rewarded, so to say, for making the decision I made. This was evident in the classroom on several occasions. Whereas usually I'd sit aside from group interaction that required judgmental decision making, I could think through possibilities much swifter and come up with an acceptable outcome sooner and more confidently... Usually I would think of an option, then consider what the blowback of that option would be, then neglect to take that option due to fear that I may not be able to come up with a solution to the blowback that my decision made. With amphetamine, I could quickly choose the option that would, in my eyes, bring the most benefit with the fewest negative results, and still continue to have the energy and mental fortitude to continue that process for the remainder of class.
Confidence and sociability.. Now this comes to work wonders in social settings. I can remember back to one night at a friends after taking a meager dose of amph, there were some girls over that I hadn't been acquainted with yet. I initiated and maintained a conversation with a girl that I'd never seen before, that's not an easy task for me. But I got her number, walked her home and dated for a couple weeks after. The confidence boost was another thing that was revealed in the classroom.. You see, I'm the type that sits quietly and nervously in his desk, trapped in his head and hoping the teacher doesn't put a spotlight on me, the type that gets blank looks and awkward silence when I say something that the class hears. However, doses of amphetamine, and I'm a social machine, saying things that are on my mind without hesitation or regret. For an INTP, it can be a blessing to let out knowledge in a way that can be understood to many, and receive praise for it. Usually I'd stutter and rethink things when trying to talk about smart stuff to a group of people.
Negative... We like to focus on what captures our interest. Well, amphetamine gives you like 10x that focus. It can be great for obtaining gratuitous amounts of knowledge in one sitting, but when you finally look up from whatever you're attention is on and notice that enough time has gone by that the happenings around you are different, it can be weird. In a blue collar work environment that involves multiple tasks, I find it to be annoying. And also when you're getting in depth into an article on your smart phone while carelessly walking into traffic...
Appetite, sleep, mood...
Eh, fuck it, I'm too lazy to continue, I'll finish the rest and add extra comments whenever I feel like it, goodnight.