INTPs and Pride, becoming INTJ

[Sanctum]

So as the school year is winding down I've been thinking about things I can do Next year to get better grades, considering the fact that my grades this year are probably the worst I've ever had in my life. One trend that i noticed about me is my inability to ask for help, every time I don't understand something I say to myself "I can figure it out on my own" But then my P'ness gets in a way and I don't figure it out at all. I've also been coming up with a theory in relations to my personality a lot of times its like an INTP and an INTJ are fighting in my head I feel like I'm kind of both or borderline INTJ ( which i don't mind). Especially considering the whole pride thing, I am very prideful and I have read in many places that INTJ are Prideful in their knowledge and lately I've been very INTJ like: Making List, Planning out my day, Cleaning a lot, Working and then playing. I think I might be becoming INTJ because now i see that my future relies on my actions of now so now the INTJ version of me is fighting and becoming more dominant, but I feel ultimately most people have 2 personalities that coexist or perhaps each brain hemisphere of your brain possess its own personality. That notion also makes sense in the way my mind works when I take Brain Hemisphere test I usually score as being center brain or using both sides maybe if I take it again I might be Left Brained considering the fact I have been more INTJ like.

 

[ProxyAmenRa]

How old are you?

 

[Sanctum]

16

 

[nanook]

many of you guys are intj anyway. one doesn't get more J than being Ti dominant. it might be a good thing if you quit being in denial about your Ti nature. it's all about coming up with optimized methodoligies and focusing on them. on the other hand, focusing on your dominant function to the exclusion of auxiliary traits may be a stress response, and the sort of contraction that creates a shadow conflict (the shadow of Ti being Fe). that proud issue might very well be a struggle with shadow Fe. the Fe attitude about your situation would be: "we should go through a hardship like education together, let's make a homework-work-group" as you try to do the opposite, a voice in the back of your head, your shadow Fe tells you, that maybe you are going too far and you create needless suffering for yourself. interestingly the source of the stress during school years can have a lot to do with Fe. Fe is in touch with the need to comply, to be connected with culture, to share values. if the values are about being successful, and the voice of values is talking down on you, from your shadow, like a compulsion, then you might fight against it, rather than to negotiate with it. a negotiation would be: okay, if i have to comply, i don't have to achive that alone - "help me, show me how and i will do it - if you fail to show me, then it's okay if i fail to comply". the fight against it says: "i don't want to comply, i want to make on my own." but make what alone? you are still trying to comply! fighting the shadow yields illogical results.


on the other hand, if you were actually a dominant perciver, that is an NiTe type, then your auxiliary strategy (thinking) would be somewhat lame and inferior strategy, a step by step, trial and error, figuring out one thing at a time, often getting lost in it, wanting to be super thorough about it, rather than refocusing on another task, having bad sense of priorities, all of which can be helped by stepping back out of your default mode and carefully assembling a list about what's going on in your life, what resources you have and what needs to be done. that is becoming more conscious and smart about your merely auxiliary skill of Te. it's a helpless attempt to emulate the natural skill of Ti and it requires externalization on paper, because the Ni dominant mind isn't hardwired well for prolonged focus on such a meta-approach to methodology. the default mode of Ni dominance is to just sit there and to get nothing done, at all, apart from figuring out the nature of reality.

 

[ProxyAmenRa]

It is no big deal. We have all be through phases were we have been shit at things. When I was 16, before I dropped out of high school, I was failing every subject. It was not because I was not particularly bright. It was because of the environment. I left school, worked and sorted my life out. After a year I went back and finished high school with high grades. Maturity also has much to do with it.