Anktark
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I wonder how often that occurs. For quite a while I thought whether or not my actions and thoughts follow the definition of a sociopath (by now I think they do not). However, from the little amount of information I gathered about ataraxia, I think I have it (or it has me?). I am not saying I have never experienced stress or worry at all, but those occurrences are... relatively rare. I don't remember myself panicking though.
I have met people that are rather free from stress/worry or at least hide it very well. But I am rather calm in situations when stress/shock/panic is kind of an acceptable norm, like: nearly dieing, going to dentist, being attacked by dogs (not puppies or the little ones), getting into a fight with other people, getting lost in a forest, accidentally setting my clothes on fire. I think the closest I come to stress is when I am about to get into a center of attention physically (I don't like that).
The nearly dieing includes: nearly being hit by vehicles ( several cars, a bus and a mini-truck), nearly drowning in what I thought was a properly frozen over lake (that sound of cracking ice is kinda awesome) once, around 4-5 times nearly drowning in a lake at summer (the first time I fell out of a little boat before I knew how to swim at all and other times I overestimated my endurance and swam too far from the shore. Just to note, death by drowning kinda sucks), falling out of a tree (7, maybe 8 meters above ground). It's not like I don't have self preservation or wish to live, I just don't freak out. It's more like "whoa, I am about to die" or "these are the actions I should take to increase the likelihood of my survival".
Secondly, I don't think I grieve. One of the people that I really liked and was familiar with was my grandfather. Rational, open (minded), kind, intelligent and civilized (I think an ISTP). I clearly remember thinking "from what I know, he had a rather good life. I wonder if he would have preferred to die in his sleep".
To make it short, it's easy for me to let people go (whether they are alive or dead).
I can care (I think) and get angry (cold anger mostly) and experience other emotions people have, so I am not always in the "serene happy place for bastards".
Does anyone have a good source of information about ataraxia? I tried to do some superficial research, but Google is not providing sufficient material (maybe I am not using some essential keywords?).
My final questions:
Is this ataraxia or just usual INTP stuff? Maybe ataraxia is prevalent in E/INTPs? What is a good and detailed (preferably with examples) definition of ataraxia?
P.S. I was curious whether or not I was a sociopath, but the possibility does not scare/worry me.
I have met people that are rather free from stress/worry or at least hide it very well. But I am rather calm in situations when stress/shock/panic is kind of an acceptable norm, like: nearly dieing, going to dentist, being attacked by dogs (not puppies or the little ones), getting into a fight with other people, getting lost in a forest, accidentally setting my clothes on fire. I think the closest I come to stress is when I am about to get into a center of attention physically (I don't like that).
The nearly dieing includes: nearly being hit by vehicles ( several cars, a bus and a mini-truck), nearly drowning in what I thought was a properly frozen over lake (that sound of cracking ice is kinda awesome) once, around 4-5 times nearly drowning in a lake at summer (the first time I fell out of a little boat before I knew how to swim at all and other times I overestimated my endurance and swam too far from the shore. Just to note, death by drowning kinda sucks), falling out of a tree (7, maybe 8 meters above ground). It's not like I don't have self preservation or wish to live, I just don't freak out. It's more like "whoa, I am about to die" or "these are the actions I should take to increase the likelihood of my survival".
Secondly, I don't think I grieve. One of the people that I really liked and was familiar with was my grandfather. Rational, open (minded), kind, intelligent and civilized (I think an ISTP). I clearly remember thinking "from what I know, he had a rather good life. I wonder if he would have preferred to die in his sleep".
To make it short, it's easy for me to let people go (whether they are alive or dead).
I can care (I think) and get angry (cold anger mostly) and experience other emotions people have, so I am not always in the "serene happy place for bastards".
Does anyone have a good source of information about ataraxia? I tried to do some superficial research, but Google is not providing sufficient material (maybe I am not using some essential keywords?).
My final questions:
Is this ataraxia or just usual INTP stuff? Maybe ataraxia is prevalent in E/INTPs? What is a good and detailed (preferably with examples) definition of ataraxia?
P.S. I was curious whether or not I was a sociopath, but the possibility does not scare/worry me.