Hadoblado
think again losers
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Something has changed in my head.
I noticed while playing computer games a month or so back. The automated camaraderie of other players, the things that are said by the character and not the player, I felt myself accepting them. Positive meaningless things. It's like I can feel the physiological response to the validation offered by a program. I shoot someone, the AI says 'nice shot', and I feel good. In the back of my mind I realise I'm saying to myself, 'damn straight nice shot, don't you doubt it'.
This was not always the case. This stuff is meaningless and misled. I used to hate it when people offered this kind of validation. They're trying to control me. Who the hell are they to input conditioning into my learning experience? And yet now I've got a passive intake, and feel better for having it.
A few years back I kind of switched, wishing for a more ordinary response to reinforcers. I find it difficult to be engaged by things because I don't find them rewarding. Being reinforced by validation, which can be inserted into literally any learning, could unlock avenues for me that I felt previously were barred.
Well now I have it, or some form of it. It's consistent, and I don't know whether it's a good thing. On one hand it makes me feel like an idiot, on the other, I'm comfortable, and it could be useful in becoming less of an idiot.
I don't really know anything about what could cause this sort of change in someone. It feels like a structural change in self-concept. Does anyone know anything worth sharing? Is it a permanent edition or just a phase? Thoughts?
I noticed while playing computer games a month or so back. The automated camaraderie of other players, the things that are said by the character and not the player, I felt myself accepting them. Positive meaningless things. It's like I can feel the physiological response to the validation offered by a program. I shoot someone, the AI says 'nice shot', and I feel good. In the back of my mind I realise I'm saying to myself, 'damn straight nice shot, don't you doubt it'.
This was not always the case. This stuff is meaningless and misled. I used to hate it when people offered this kind of validation. They're trying to control me. Who the hell are they to input conditioning into my learning experience? And yet now I've got a passive intake, and feel better for having it.
A few years back I kind of switched, wishing for a more ordinary response to reinforcers. I find it difficult to be engaged by things because I don't find them rewarding. Being reinforced by validation, which can be inserted into literally any learning, could unlock avenues for me that I felt previously were barred.
Well now I have it, or some form of it. It's consistent, and I don't know whether it's a good thing. On one hand it makes me feel like an idiot, on the other, I'm comfortable, and it could be useful in becoming less of an idiot.
I don't really know anything about what could cause this sort of change in someone. It feels like a structural change in self-concept. Does anyone know anything worth sharing? Is it a permanent edition or just a phase? Thoughts?