Feeling suicidal and depressed today, I really can't tolerate this existence anymore.
I am just sick and tired of doing worthless tasks. I can't fucking stand it. I just want to work in industry, I wouldn't even care about the pay I just need to do something of value. As long as I could feel myself and travel there and back I would work there for months no problem. I'm seriously lost without it. I can't do a simple part-time job anymore because I'm not growing and to me they don't provide any value.
Education seems pointless, slow and worst of all: Theoretical. Grade boundaries are a joke with one question with a short answer being worth 5 marks, so you either get 5 marks or you don't. Where is the logic in that? Get 2 of those questions and that's a grade boundary of a 4.0 or 3.0 GPA. Ultimately it's going to mean jack-shit when I get into industry because industry requires you to be fast on your feet and constantly learn. I'm not constantly learning anything from education and some of the marking scheme is just straight-up retarded: For example, meeting the likes of the Single Responsibility principle to that of a model answer, instead of refining it even further. In-fact, refining it further causes a loss in marks.I don't think education and industry works in harmony over here, education is just a money-maker.
I'm nowhere where I want to be, not even near a fucking baseline. There is just nothing to look towards in this country. My course is 5 years long and it'll account for a lot less within my first 6 months on the job. I can't plan to do the work myself because there's just so many avenues to learn: Should I learn C++, Java, PHP, J#, what software tools are we using, development models, Data analytics, ML, Databases, Cybersecurity, DevOps etc. I need thrown in the deep end and I can't wait another year to get there.