What am I passionate about? I can't name it, but it would be about something new. New means exciting, overflowing with possibilities. That is something to be passionate about for me. But not the emotion. It's the topic. What I want to do is take in, break down and use the topic. This means getting rid of the passion. A strange contradiction.
Would this be like consumption? That is, on the sensual level one may be interested in eating something great. But the object is not to continue eating over and over. The object is to go through the eating PROCESS, biting off, chewing, tasting, and finishing down the gullet.
I seem to be missing something but can't put my finger on it. What's missing?