Mechanical World
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I never previously thought I could be categorized, I have always been very different from everyone around me. I have tons of energy, and when I was younger I was almost ADHD;I had terrible anxiety, and while it did not stop me from doing things, I would vomit anytime anything exciting was happening or going to happen. Things as mundane as going to a friend's house could trigger it. I hid it well and nearly nobody was aware I puked nearly every day. No doctor could figure me out. At an early age of around 10, I was taught to completely control myself through mediTation. It worked to end my anxiety, and as a nice bonus I can stay relaxed in essentially any situation now. I went through school very bored and not caring much, getting by with As and Bs but no effort and it was obvious.
Separated from the B.S. of public education, I went to engineering college and I realized that I had so much I wanted to learn, and I became very aware of an inner drive to improve myself. I started to work very hard and pulled off very good grades. I started to grow a lot and develop myself. Who was I? Why was I here? What was I good at that I enjoyed aside from engineering? What did I want to be good at? I was always open minded but in college I threw the door wide open; I question every thought I have now in a redundant manner to verify it has passed the "open mindedness test."
In college, for the first time in my life I found a couple others that were similar to me and they became my best friends.
My 3 year younger brother (21) is an INFP and became obsessed with society's problems. He had always been clever, but he was never really "here" and passionate about anything, then suddenly he was obsessed and talks about our messed up world all the time.
I started doing research myself since he was always babbling and I became very aware that I could think about things that were not engineering or straight forward. This developed my Ti a lot and I have become a much more well rounded person. I also became very unhappy with the state of the world and the individuals running it, and I am constantly thinking about viable ways to solve it, trying to include the entire picture in my thought process. It is exhausting.
It really let me understand that everything is a machine and can be looked at in a mechanical way, where everything is connected and even nonsensical things can be logical if all the facts are present. Sometimes facts can be abstract and I have learned to understand them. This is why I made my username Mechanical World, because it was my most profound self discovery to date and has made me who I am today.
I feel as though I am at a point where I am very developed. Now I think I will continue to develop forever, but at the moment I feel very whole. It is as if everything will be an addition to myself, rather than filling in gaps. I have a very good understanding of myself and how I work, and I have been assessing and self improving for a while now.
I had never taken a personality test before, my brother took one and found out he was an INFP. Now all the world saving made sense since I never pegged him for it prior. He has always been an extremely irrational person during arguments and I finally understood why. After reading how accurate his description was, I took the test. I was amazed at how close INTP described me, even down to social rebellion and how I despise rules.
I am always on the line between I/E and I am always NPT. I usually score up to 8% in either direction of I or E. I feel as though my energy and ADD comes from the E side of me, but because I am able to keep myself calm all the time I am usually expressing my I side. Sometimes I am unable to contain my excitement at a new discovery (to me) and I have to blab all about it to my friends in an almost uncontrollable way. I used to do this very often, but I have developed over the course of my life and I am a very neutral person now. I am good at listening and making sure I am not just thinking all my own thoughts when someone else is talking. I still have my moments however.
However I relate much stronger to the INTP side of myself than the ENTP. I just have boundless energy and uncontrollable urges somewhat frequently, but I never create a persona for myself to mask anything or fit in differently. I think I am socially... fine... but I probably come across as not too much is going on. This is because I let people know me in steps, and so when I first meet them, there is not much of myself I really introduce, I approach new people in a near suspicious manner, and I don't do too much to hide it. Unless I am feeling very E at the time which will generally happen if I have had a good day and am feeling light-hearted. It makes me feel quick on my toes socially.
I have found that my Ti can get in the way a lot sometimes, and I have learned to turn it to a quick thinking autopilot when I need to do things like hitting a jump on a dirt bike or talking to a lady. Ti is great, but when all the possibilities about how something can go wrong flash through your mind at the wrong time, it is a hindrance. The same thing can happen in social situations, it is not always good to think about every negative way you could be perceived. It has been useful for me and I can do it pretty easily now, though it used to be really hard.
I am constantly thinking though and creating mind skyscrapers where I have ideas that I have linked together to form a base, and then all future ideas are built directly on those in a logical way. Now I feel as though my mind is full of these and I can revisit them and continue to build on them. I have started keeping a journal to help me keep track of where I was and when. The most underdeveloped part of my brain is my memory. If I think about anything hard, it is in my memory forever, but if I don't specifically remember something to try and remember it for a long time, it will disappear. It has always been easy for me to remember mathematics, science, and engineering because it is impossible to try and learn them and not think about the subjects simultaneously.
I am obsessed with cars at the moment, it is my most involved "project" currently. I love designing new parts for them and making the parts myself. I have a 1985 Pontiac Fiero which is nearly 0% stock, and a mostly stock 2002 Subaru WRX. I have swapped the Fiero's engine 4 times, and the WRX's engine blew up on me and I had to build a new one and swap it in.
Anyways I have rambled long enough, I have been reading this forum extensively recently and I decided all y'all would be real fun to have a conversation with about many things. Not many of us around me to talk to. And those that do want to talk, nearly none of them can relate to me.
-MechWrld
Separated from the B.S. of public education, I went to engineering college and I realized that I had so much I wanted to learn, and I became very aware of an inner drive to improve myself. I started to work very hard and pulled off very good grades. I started to grow a lot and develop myself. Who was I? Why was I here? What was I good at that I enjoyed aside from engineering? What did I want to be good at? I was always open minded but in college I threw the door wide open; I question every thought I have now in a redundant manner to verify it has passed the "open mindedness test."
In college, for the first time in my life I found a couple others that were similar to me and they became my best friends.
My 3 year younger brother (21) is an INFP and became obsessed with society's problems. He had always been clever, but he was never really "here" and passionate about anything, then suddenly he was obsessed and talks about our messed up world all the time.
I started doing research myself since he was always babbling and I became very aware that I could think about things that were not engineering or straight forward. This developed my Ti a lot and I have become a much more well rounded person. I also became very unhappy with the state of the world and the individuals running it, and I am constantly thinking about viable ways to solve it, trying to include the entire picture in my thought process. It is exhausting.
It really let me understand that everything is a machine and can be looked at in a mechanical way, where everything is connected and even nonsensical things can be logical if all the facts are present. Sometimes facts can be abstract and I have learned to understand them. This is why I made my username Mechanical World, because it was my most profound self discovery to date and has made me who I am today.
I feel as though I am at a point where I am very developed. Now I think I will continue to develop forever, but at the moment I feel very whole. It is as if everything will be an addition to myself, rather than filling in gaps. I have a very good understanding of myself and how I work, and I have been assessing and self improving for a while now.
I had never taken a personality test before, my brother took one and found out he was an INFP. Now all the world saving made sense since I never pegged him for it prior. He has always been an extremely irrational person during arguments and I finally understood why. After reading how accurate his description was, I took the test. I was amazed at how close INTP described me, even down to social rebellion and how I despise rules.
I am always on the line between I/E and I am always NPT. I usually score up to 8% in either direction of I or E. I feel as though my energy and ADD comes from the E side of me, but because I am able to keep myself calm all the time I am usually expressing my I side. Sometimes I am unable to contain my excitement at a new discovery (to me) and I have to blab all about it to my friends in an almost uncontrollable way. I used to do this very often, but I have developed over the course of my life and I am a very neutral person now. I am good at listening and making sure I am not just thinking all my own thoughts when someone else is talking. I still have my moments however.
However I relate much stronger to the INTP side of myself than the ENTP. I just have boundless energy and uncontrollable urges somewhat frequently, but I never create a persona for myself to mask anything or fit in differently. I think I am socially... fine... but I probably come across as not too much is going on. This is because I let people know me in steps, and so when I first meet them, there is not much of myself I really introduce, I approach new people in a near suspicious manner, and I don't do too much to hide it. Unless I am feeling very E at the time which will generally happen if I have had a good day and am feeling light-hearted. It makes me feel quick on my toes socially.
I have found that my Ti can get in the way a lot sometimes, and I have learned to turn it to a quick thinking autopilot when I need to do things like hitting a jump on a dirt bike or talking to a lady. Ti is great, but when all the possibilities about how something can go wrong flash through your mind at the wrong time, it is a hindrance. The same thing can happen in social situations, it is not always good to think about every negative way you could be perceived. It has been useful for me and I can do it pretty easily now, though it used to be really hard.
I am constantly thinking though and creating mind skyscrapers where I have ideas that I have linked together to form a base, and then all future ideas are built directly on those in a logical way. Now I feel as though my mind is full of these and I can revisit them and continue to build on them. I have started keeping a journal to help me keep track of where I was and when. The most underdeveloped part of my brain is my memory. If I think about anything hard, it is in my memory forever, but if I don't specifically remember something to try and remember it for a long time, it will disappear. It has always been easy for me to remember mathematics, science, and engineering because it is impossible to try and learn them and not think about the subjects simultaneously.
I am obsessed with cars at the moment, it is my most involved "project" currently. I love designing new parts for them and making the parts myself. I have a 1985 Pontiac Fiero which is nearly 0% stock, and a mostly stock 2002 Subaru WRX. I have swapped the Fiero's engine 4 times, and the WRX's engine blew up on me and I had to build a new one and swap it in.
Anyways I have rambled long enough, I have been reading this forum extensively recently and I decided all y'all would be real fun to have a conversation with about many things. Not many of us around me to talk to. And those that do want to talk, nearly none of them can relate to me.
-MechWrld
