Hello all my name is ray and i am an intp. I joined this forum because for some reason i just seem so lonely and i don't know why. I think its because i am deprived socially with intellectual and like minded people. So her is my short intro. You can skip the rest but i will provide an even longer intro if you happen to be bored. It will sort of be a dear diary moment so feel free to ignore the rest.
First of i understand that we intps are not valued like gold or as rare as diamonds. But we are rare when it comes to all the personality types and i have always known i was "different" i just didn't understand in what context until recently.
I am a undergrad atm and like any other intp before the moment they had to pick a traditional path in life i wanted to know myself better. So oneday i took a mbti test. At first i got intj but after understanding the system and taking various tests i have come to this. I am about 80 percent introverted maybe more, my N is about 70 percent, my T is probably my strongest probably close to the 90 mark and my P is at about 60 percent. At times my J side shines but for the most part and when its my choice im a P.
When it comes to life i am pretty balanced for the most part. I have hobbies like weightlifting, fishing , writing scripts, etc. I am enrolled in college attaining a degree in pharmacy, and i have, for the most part, figured out my dreams and ambitions when it comes to my future. And with each passing day i finish a little bit of my forever growing task list. So im not one of those "lost" intps. But the main problem is i have no real best friends. And this loneliness has gotten the best of me and is starting to pull me down.
As an introvert i really am not socially out going. But i do love to keep really close relationships with a few close friends. Buts its gotten so complicated ever since HS ended. You see i have a big family but i am the youngest so it makes it hard to connect with them. Infact they have all moved out , finished college , married and are popping out babies. And as any introvert will tell you, i have a small pool of energy that goes towards social interaction. Majority goes to my family and what little i have left should be spent towards people i can connect to on a mental level.
In highschool i bounced around a lot for the first year or so. I actually lived abroad before so i sort of missed the transitional middle school year before HS. I did not know who i was. Eventually i settled in a group with a bunch of random people. Some outcasts, some nerds, some jocks. It was a close group and i loved it.
But eventually as time went on it grew. And this time i lived with most my siblings and it was like i had two big families. But i was still close with some group members but i missed out on group activities as they consisted of to many people for my anxious self and after about a year and a half i drifted until i lost most of my friends. I say lost but i still have connections on fb but whenever i try to do a 1 on 1 it becomes a group thing so i gave up.
I did have a really close cousin i talked to but he lives way up north and i live in florida so its just talking on the phone. However he seems to be in a situation where i feel he himself is lost and is making stupid choices so i gave him some space to figure his life out as its something i can't help him with. We still talk but its not the same and wont be until he figures some things out.
So here i am guys. Maybe i can discuss some philosophical topics here or perhaps you can suggest ways i can fill this gap in my life. Its hard for me to trust people and It seems when i try to make friends they all already have close knitted relationships with other people or there is not a real mental connection. Where can i meet other intps/intj/entj/entps/etc etc? Anyways looking forward to meeting you guys and seeing your responses.
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First of i understand that we intps are not valued like gold or as rare as diamonds. But we are rare when it comes to all the personality types and i have always known i was "different" i just didn't understand in what context until recently.
I am a undergrad atm and like any other intp before the moment they had to pick a traditional path in life i wanted to know myself better. So oneday i took a mbti test. At first i got intj but after understanding the system and taking various tests i have come to this. I am about 80 percent introverted maybe more, my N is about 70 percent, my T is probably my strongest probably close to the 90 mark and my P is at about 60 percent. At times my J side shines but for the most part and when its my choice im a P.
When it comes to life i am pretty balanced for the most part. I have hobbies like weightlifting, fishing , writing scripts, etc. I am enrolled in college attaining a degree in pharmacy, and i have, for the most part, figured out my dreams and ambitions when it comes to my future. And with each passing day i finish a little bit of my forever growing task list. So im not one of those "lost" intps. But the main problem is i have no real best friends. And this loneliness has gotten the best of me and is starting to pull me down.
As an introvert i really am not socially out going. But i do love to keep really close relationships with a few close friends. Buts its gotten so complicated ever since HS ended. You see i have a big family but i am the youngest so it makes it hard to connect with them. Infact they have all moved out , finished college , married and are popping out babies. And as any introvert will tell you, i have a small pool of energy that goes towards social interaction. Majority goes to my family and what little i have left should be spent towards people i can connect to on a mental level.
In highschool i bounced around a lot for the first year or so. I actually lived abroad before so i sort of missed the transitional middle school year before HS. I did not know who i was. Eventually i settled in a group with a bunch of random people. Some outcasts, some nerds, some jocks. It was a close group and i loved it.
But eventually as time went on it grew. And this time i lived with most my siblings and it was like i had two big families. But i was still close with some group members but i missed out on group activities as they consisted of to many people for my anxious self and after about a year and a half i drifted until i lost most of my friends. I say lost but i still have connections on fb but whenever i try to do a 1 on 1 it becomes a group thing so i gave up.
I did have a really close cousin i talked to but he lives way up north and i live in florida so its just talking on the phone. However he seems to be in a situation where i feel he himself is lost and is making stupid choices so i gave him some space to figure his life out as its something i can't help him with. We still talk but its not the same and wont be until he figures some things out.
So here i am guys. Maybe i can discuss some philosophical topics here or perhaps you can suggest ways i can fill this gap in my life. Its hard for me to trust people and It seems when i try to make friends they all already have close knitted relationships with other people or there is not a real mental connection. Where can i meet other intps/intj/entj/entps/etc etc? Anyways looking forward to meeting you guys and seeing your responses.
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LEL.