Andydon
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Hello everyone! New guy here. I've taken multiple and varied online personality tests to try to NOT be INTP, but...here I am anyway. Every single one, every single time. Great. Alright, a little about myself.
I'm a twenty-nine year old writer. I realize that may be a little odd for INTP, but I've felt completely unable to do anything else except work a crap job and write for most of my life. Not uninterested, just unable. Parents thought I was ADD as a kid, the dreaming spacey kind. Turns out I just have a real problem with lack of motivation. I spend endless hours trying to improve myself, occasionally succeeding, mostly failing. I spend even more hours trying to figure myself out. Always have.
I surfed through high school and into college on really just pure brainpower. Unfortunately, that can only take you so far. In college, I went through a cycle of majors, was political science until I realized that I liked the strategy of how to win a campaign, not the actual politics themselves. Then psychology, mostly because I wanted to figure myself out, and maybe help people as screwed up as I was. Eventually I got frustrated by a cycle of general failure, hating myself, trying again, and so on, until one day I decided I didn't care. Just like that. Left college, decided that what I really wanted to do the whole time was just be a writer.
The writing thing is probably a result of reading everything I can get my hands on, although mostly fiction. I was quite the escapist as a teenager. It wasn't a happy time.
I think I'm generally in a better place now, and am slowly becoming the person I want to be, but by most everybody else's standards around me, I'm sure I look like a giant screw up, although they don't know WHY.
I love boardgames, particularly strategic ones. Can't stand all the "normal" boardgames, the get-to-know-you crap people play. They bore me.
I most recently had/have a crush on a girl in my writing group, but at the moment I'm detaching emotionally, as having a crush on someone throws a wrench in my mental works. It's draining and annoying. Probably I shouldn't be able to detach like that.
Anyway. If you don't think I'm INTP, please tell me, and tell me why, because sometimes it's a nightmare. It'd be nice if I was just convincing myself that I was.
I am excited to find a forum of people like myself though, and despite how a lot of this sounds, I am generally a pretty happy person. When I'm not getting down on myself and thinking about how I need to live up more to my own values.
I'm a twenty-nine year old writer. I realize that may be a little odd for INTP, but I've felt completely unable to do anything else except work a crap job and write for most of my life. Not uninterested, just unable. Parents thought I was ADD as a kid, the dreaming spacey kind. Turns out I just have a real problem with lack of motivation. I spend endless hours trying to improve myself, occasionally succeeding, mostly failing. I spend even more hours trying to figure myself out. Always have.
I surfed through high school and into college on really just pure brainpower. Unfortunately, that can only take you so far. In college, I went through a cycle of majors, was political science until I realized that I liked the strategy of how to win a campaign, not the actual politics themselves. Then psychology, mostly because I wanted to figure myself out, and maybe help people as screwed up as I was. Eventually I got frustrated by a cycle of general failure, hating myself, trying again, and so on, until one day I decided I didn't care. Just like that. Left college, decided that what I really wanted to do the whole time was just be a writer.
The writing thing is probably a result of reading everything I can get my hands on, although mostly fiction. I was quite the escapist as a teenager. It wasn't a happy time.
I think I'm generally in a better place now, and am slowly becoming the person I want to be, but by most everybody else's standards around me, I'm sure I look like a giant screw up, although they don't know WHY.
I love boardgames, particularly strategic ones. Can't stand all the "normal" boardgames, the get-to-know-you crap people play. They bore me.
I most recently had/have a crush on a girl in my writing group, but at the moment I'm detaching emotionally, as having a crush on someone throws a wrench in my mental works. It's draining and annoying. Probably I shouldn't be able to detach like that.
Anyway. If you don't think I'm INTP, please tell me, and tell me why, because sometimes it's a nightmare. It'd be nice if I was just convincing myself that I was.
I am excited to find a forum of people like myself though, and despite how a lot of this sounds, I am generally a pretty happy person. When I'm not getting down on myself and thinking about how I need to live up more to my own values.
