Hello!

[Hearthstoned]

Hello everyone!

I've been a long-time user/lurker of these forums, and have finally decided to lose my post virginity.

A bit about me: I'm a 27 year old male, I live in Canada - currently in BC, I often make excessive use of -'s in my grammatical structure (it expresses my thought patterns so well!), I first took the "legit" MBTI test in an unemployed youth program and tested INTP 5 years ago (fancy, EH?) , and I work at a factory that manufactures a wide range of circuit boards for customers like Ford, Tesla, Autocar, etc.

Other things I'll offer about myself, which you probably don't honestly care about: I've had a tendency to defy INTP stereotypes about sociability - not as an intentional practice but innately; I dropped out of university in the beginning of my 3rd year of a bio undergrad due to a falling out with some family, and consequently funding; I have had over 30 separate female sexual partners so far (roughly 5x the average of a male 30-44 according to the kinsey institute), and I have a family history of mental illness - I was certain I was feeling the prodomal period of my mother's illness for a solid 8-10 months at one point when at my lowest.

All in all I think I am at a fairly good point in my life. I'm going through a period where I'm focused on my physical health more than ever, and I'm feeling the ancillary effects of that in the other parts of my life. And I recently just got a big promotion at work, that will yield at worst a 27% raise in income (negotiate pay & contract in a couple weeks).

It's not all peaches and cream though, as I'm currently going through some stuff with my girlfriend of 2 years that I'm certain will not end well or peacefully. But that, as they say, is that.

Looking forward to adding a few of my thoughts and discussing them with you folk!
After the obligatory 1-900 days of procrastination, of course

 

[Sinny91]

Well that's a refreshing introductory post.
Welcome aboard.

 

[QuickTwist]

What were you diagnosed with if you don't mind me asking?

 

[Hearthstoned]

Oh no problem to ask - though I am sorry if my wording was inarticulate: I wasn't diagnosed with anything, and since that period in my life have felt healthy and relatively sane (if not a bit weird).

But several years ago I read an article on the prodome period of schizophrenia which mentioned that there tends to be a period in time where the schizophrenic describes a period leading up to the full onset where they felt like they were losing it (a vague paraphrase I'm sorry, but this kind of thing isn't exactly nailed down scientifically). More interestingly though, and perhaps more terrifying, is the fact that:
A.) A significant amount of people who were diagnosed with schizophrenia had experienced this period several times and recovered temporarily to their full mental states before they then again developed the full onset of the illness
&
B.) A significant amount of people have sought out medical help for the same vague general mental unhappiness and unstable-ness, but never developed full onset schizophrenia.

Again, I have to apologize for the vague terminology here. Part of it is the fact that there really isn't a clear way of describing it; people tend to use unique terminology to describe their feelings/behavior, and part of it is the fact that when it comes to mental illness, even our most educated professionals are pretty much just fucking winging it. There really is no science behind this kind of stuff when it comes to diagnostics, cause, or treatment.

Now, the reason I thought I was in a prodomal period was because my mother is paranoid schizophrenic. She was misdiagnosed as other illnesses from schizo-affective to bipolar for about 8 years before finally reaching a proper diagnosis. And my family and I could tell before she would relapse (and sometimes) before it was so severe that I had to play mindgames with her to get herself accepted into a medical institution - as the patient has to admit themselves, which is no easy feat for a paranoid schizophrenic :P

Anyways, I certainly don't pretend to know the educated side of this matter but I'm certain I have better insight to this specific diagnosis than most.

Who knows though, there's still time to go crazy

 

[mrrhq]

I also tend to defy INTP stereotypes. Who needs them anyway?