Of Me

[Variform]

Hello's!

Just a quick introduction here. Some of you who wrote a message like this might know how it is. You are new to a place, optimistic and enthusiastic and want to give too much detail straight away. So I'll keep it short and simple.

I found this place searching for INTP information. I searched around years ago because I suspected I was an INTP, but the whole MBTI thing sort of escaped my interest at the time.

I don't have a good grasp of it yet as I see people here throw around terms and understandings that are over my head currently. I am trying to get my head around this mode of thinking but feel slightly uneasy because of the inherent danger that comes from typology as such, I guess. I mean, matters of logical fallacy are invited when you connect individual personality traits and modes of being to a standardized stereotype.

Anyway, I wanted to keep this short but unfortunately I am prone to lengthy and wordy posts. I am not of the twitter generation I do like these green emoticons and wonder if that has a special meaning here

I recognize so many things people are sharing that I felt compelled to become a member. Every third post I read or scanned over seem to have a hook to catch my interest. Things that make me want to dive right into it.

So why was I searching INTP profile information? Recently I have been forced to re-valuate who I am and how I am in the world. To be honest, I am not feeling all that hot at the moment and to me the INTP profile feels more like a prison and a trap and quite a nuisance as my ability to accept what I am has grown ever so difficult, leading me into a cul-de-sac of sorts out of which I am now trying to maneuver and gain a better understanding of who I am and why.

I have been looking at AD(H)D lately because frankly, I check way too many boxes for it not to be taken seriously. And as you might know, ADHD symptoms in some forms, especially the inattentive type seem to hug the INTP personality quite close.

So this is a search for truth, for overview, analyses and some hopefully rewarding discussions with like minded people, where 'discussion' means a meaningful conversation.

By the way, English is not my primary language so forgive me for any mistakes I will make.

 

[The Gopher]

Heh, thought you were an old member for a moment with that avatar. I'm from the chatting generation so my posts tend to be short but plentiful, at least they used to be.

 

[Pyropyro]

Welcome.

Ah, the Flammarion engraving, quite a classic.

Anyways, I suggest treating the MBTI as a starting point rather than as a destination. This will help you avoid that feeling of being caged. The stereotypical INTP detailed in most profiles is usually depicted as still rough on the ages. It's still within your power to either accept these profiles as a static description of yourself or use them as guides for honing your strengths and for reducing your weaknesses.

 

[Anktark]

Hello. You figured the meta process of joining the forum before your intro here. I didn't, so congratulations
I wouldn't worry about ADHD much, unless it's really messing up your life. My guess it's not it. From what I saw so far, INTPs posses great focus, just can't really handle/ aim it well. Sometimes it takes me five tries to make a cup of tea (then other times I just lose patience and drink milk instead). Then other times I begin doing something and the rest of the world becomes nearly irrelevant- "Ok, I am about to pee, I better relocate. Should have a meal too afterwards. Whoa, why is the sun coming up?".
I don't look at MBTI type as a prison or something that defines exactly who I am. It's just a classification or generalization of thought patterns, ways to see and know the world. Don't worry, you are still a special snowflake- just like everyone else.

Thank you for revealing that English is not your mother tongue. I wouldn't have noticed. Beware, form now on, I will be watching you. When you make a typo, I will be there. You will spell something incorrectly and I will be there. You will write a run-on sentence and I will be there. I will be there and not care, because you seem to put enough effort in your writing and want to be easily understood.
Now, what is "Hello's"? You better have a good explanation or things will go on as usual.

 

[Variform]

Thanks for the welcome guys.

Aye, the engraving is something close to my heart. I can imagine it being used on here. The association is pretty clear, the search for truth, for understanding. I identify with that guy there. I have always been that guy.

So yes, MBTI as a starting point, fair enough, I agree. But it is uncanny isn't it, when you read it for the first time. It applies so well. I stayed away from it for a few years. I already had a diagnosis that provided a framework. And I question that dx now, I have been for some years actually, because some of the symptoms apply to the INTP profile. And so you get this multi-faceted patchwork vision on yourself.
What is what? Is it a symptom, a personality trait, results of gorwoing up in a dysfunctional family or a mix of these, blown out of proportion. But with psychiatric diagnoses it is always a matter of whether or not a symptom causes problems in your functioning. And for me that seems to be the case.

And that is where the ADHD enters into it. I had trouble all my life and the question for me is, was the dysfunction caused by ADHD sumptoms or are the symptoms the result of my parents not understanding how different I was from my older brother.

I guess I'll write about that sometime.

Oh, the 'hello's... I guess I wanted to just drop a bunch of them around here so that anyone wanting to respond could grab one.