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Artsu Tharaz

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DID I FUCKING TALK TO SPARROW
 

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because what i said
 

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Because you are in denial.
 

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maybe sparrow is helping you in the long term;

it seems that if one person can so easily knock you off your self-esteem horse,

it is *possible* that your ego is too fragile and needs to get shattered a bit in order to get stronger

or alternatively, maybe he said something so nasty that even the strongest of us would have faltered; I would need more information, but I'm thinking my intuition is more on par with reality, that you will emerge stronger than you were before, and you'll look upon the situation somewhat more favorably after you've gotten over the hurt part
 

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idk, doesn't seem likely. it's not what he said so much (i think he was making me sexually insecure or something), it was the timing. seems like the best thing to happen to me has fallen apart.

and come on, if any of you are even real, how did no one take notice of the multitude of threads he was putting up?

as for what happened,

let's say i was getting married, now i'm not

i've also been hospitalised for psychosis
 

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Artsu Tharaz said:
idk, doesn't seem likely. it's not what he said so much (i think he was making me sexually insecure or something), it was the timing. seems like the best thing to happen to me has fallen apart.

and come on, if any of you are even real, how did no one take notice of the multitude of threads he was putting up?

as for what happened,

let's say i was getting married, now i'm not

i've also been hospitalised for psychosis
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Could you expand on your relationship with Sparrow?

72 threads created by this Sparrow.
 

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Could you expand on your relationship with Sparrow?

72 threads created by this Sparrow.
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jinxi at 16types. i spoke with him and cammed with him last november. i forget what exactly he said, but i remember feeling like i was dying inside, and puking and was on edge for a few weeks. timing was terrible. fiance said i was really distant despite having had a wonderful time with her previously, and ended up leaving me.

by threads, i mean those created under different names that he was spamming the forum with.
 

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Artsu Tharaz said:
jinxi at 16types. i spoke with him and cammed with him last november. i forget what exactly he said, but i remember feeling like i was dying inside, and puking and was on edge for a few weeks. timing was terrible. fiance said i was really distant despite having had a wonderful time with her previously, and ended up leaving me.

by threads, i mean those created under different names that he was spamming the forum with.
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What exactly did this Sparrow say to you to make you have a personal crisis? I am really curious.
 

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Curiousity killed the cat.
 

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Psychosis is not so bad
It's like a free Disneyland
 

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How in the world could talking to someone ruin your life?
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fragile situation. maybe i was just insecure anyway. but i feel like he turned me from being positive about myself to being negative, and that spiralled out of control.

it was probably the JWH-018 though, aye
 

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no, no, before it was purely psychosis induced and made no fucking sense
 

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Artsu Tharaz said:
fragile situation. maybe i was just insecure anyway. but i feel like he turned me from being positive about myself to being negative, and that spiralled out of control.

it was probably the JWH-018 though, aye
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Don't use that shit.
 

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no wait, now i remember

the posts (created by i don't know who - i assumed they were sparrow, but there are so many fuckers in on this that i have no idea. could have been her for all i know) convinced me that i wasn't over a relationship that i was planning on ending anyway except i thought it would make the bitch really fkn depressed (so i thought). how i managed to get this thought into my head is quite beyond me. but it was fun enough.

can you "give" someone psychosis with text? idk

basically i just made up a tragic/conspiratorial story in my head then lived in it

gee it helps going over old chat logs
 

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Artsu Tharaz said:
no wait, now i remember

the posts (created by i don't know who - i assumed they were sparrow, but there are so many fuckers in on this that i have no idea. could have been her for all i know) convinced me that i wasn't over a relationship that i was planning on ending anyway except i thought it would make the bitch really fkn depressed (so i thought). how i managed to get this thought into my head is quite beyond me. but it was fun enough.

can you "give" someone psychosis with text? idk

basically i just made up a tragic/conspiratorial story in my head then lived in it

gee it helps going over old chat logs
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You made up a fantasy because you could not accept reality?
 

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Artsu Tharaz said:
no wait, now i remember

the posts (created by i don't know who - i assumed they were sparrow, but there are so many fuckers in on this that i have no idea. could have been her for all i know) convinced me that i wasn't over a relationship that i was planning on ending anyway except i thought it would make the bitch really fkn depressed (so i thought). how i managed to get this thought into my head is quite beyond me. but it was fun enough.

can you "give" someone psychosis with text? idk

basically i just made up a tragic/conspiratorial story in my head then lived in it

gee it helps going over old chat logs
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Yes, there are a lot of fuckers. One can always ignore them though. Why are you assuming? Why not carry out an extensive analyze of the situation? I doubt that would be out of your reportoare. Sparrow? Is that a long lost love?
 

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Artsu Tharaz said:
no wait, now i remember

the posts (created by i don't know who - i assumed they were sparrow, but there are so many fuckers in on this that i have no idea. could have been her for all i know) convinced me that i wasn't over a relationship that i was planning on ending anyway except i thought it would make the bitch really fkn depressed (so i thought). how i managed to get this thought into my head is quite beyond me. but it was fun enough.

can you "give" someone psychosis with text? idk

basically i just made up a tragic/conspiratorial story in my head then lived in it

gee it helps going over old chat logs
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I do think words, spoken orally or written (or typed) can cause psychosis; if you believe that a psychiatrist can cure mental illness, then a similar person could also cause mental illness-- even accidentally. But, I do believe that the mind can be warped and shaped all different kinds of ways, and the medium is not as important as the subject's perception. Many people consider online relationships (not only referring to romantic, but all relationships) more seriously and more "real" than others...

I find it very plausible that someone's words can cut like a dagger-- whether or not it is spoken to your face or typed via digital pixels; what's important is the effect of those words on your mental state;

if someone calls you a fucker in "real life" to your face, versus someone typing "fucker" to you in a private internet message... to some, it's a world of a difference; to others, it would be the same thing;

so yes, I do believe someone could give you psychosis with text only.
 

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You're a perfectly fine lad Artsu, and there's no reason you should be down on yourself. Don't let someone manipulate your perceptions like that, especially yourself. If you'd like I can make a thread listing all of the things you're great at so you can feel better about yourself.

I bet you're great at basketball.
And whistling.
 

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H1N1 said:
You're a perfectly fine lad Artsu, and there's no reason you should be down on yourself. Don't let someone manipulate your perceptions like that, especially yourself. If you'd like I can make a thread listing all of the things you're great at so you can feel better about yourself.

I bet you're great at basketball.
And whistling.
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In related news I bought a basketball today and tried to learn to whistle. (I'm making an effort now to do stuff)

I'm kinda crazy lately. I made up a fantasy because I couldn't accept losing my girlfriend/fiance. Also, weed and jwh-018.

In Sparrow's words (paraphrased) "the world in your mind? I took over that long ago, own it" in response to my breakup.

I honestly don't know what's happened to me all this year.

I'm not suicidal any more at least.
 

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well, idk what happened, but it's given me psychosis in the form of some disorder that idk what. :storks:
 

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can't say i do
 

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In related news I bought a basketball today and tried to learn to whistle. (I'm making an effort now to do stuff)
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I suck at both so far and am depressed again. boo

http://www.infjs.com/forums/showthread.php?t=22938

is that what happened?

took away my 'happy' inner voice

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maybe sparrow is helping you in the long term;

it seems that if one person can so easily knock you off your self-esteem horse,

it is *possible* that your ego is too fragile and needs to get shattered a bit in order to get stronger

or alternatively, maybe he said something so nasty that even the strongest of us would have faltered; I would need more information, but I'm thinking my intuition is more on par with reality, that you will emerge stronger than you were before, and you'll look upon the situation somewhat more favorably after you've gotten over the hurt part
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regardless of what help i got, losing a wife-to-be would never make it worth it
 
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