Where is da answer?

[VroumVroum]

So I’m an intp or at least I really feel comfortable with the whole idea.


I’m almost 25. I’m starting my first job in maintenance organization. I’m not sure I’ve chosen the right work though. Well, after a year of doing nothing I had to pick something anyway.


It’s nice to know there’re others. To know that I’m not the only one who lives in his head and who can only do what he chooses to do (even when he never seems to choose anything).



Still, a part of me will always dream to be awesome in some way. But I never do anything good for me.


But I’m not complaining much. Most of the time, I’m fine dreaming. Intpness also has advantages for me. Like, I never had to do much to succeed at school or university. And I entertain myself easily.


I just wish I had goals like becoming an engineer. Since I am one, I don’t know what to do with myself.


Where do you find a purpose in your life? Do you have a reason to wake up every day? Would you prefer to stay in bed and dream you are a semi god of war? Has the reality of life disappointed you to the point you reject it?
And has my first post slid into an emo crap?
Do you relate to this?
Well you suck
Note : I may deny having anything to do with this post or even change my pseudo. (Maybe am I already one of you )

 

[Sunyata]

I'm not sure if this is what you mean, but I have problems with wanting to be "awesome" too. I chalk it up to the black-and-white, all-or-nothing thinking that a lot of us INTPs have. It's horribly embarrassing, but I often imagine myself as other (fictional) people with amazing, basically flawless lives. I'm trying to give that up, though, and accept the banality of life. It will be the only way to find happiness.

But it also has a lot to do with the brainwashing and cultural conditioning our generation grew up in.

 

[VroumVroum]

I like my dreams. I certainly won’t accept to give up on them. This would be very sad.
Also, I don’t think the society has a strong weigh on this. For as long as I can remember, I’ve always had those dreams. When I was an innocent kid playing with legos I was dreaming about being a robot like the one in “short circuit”. I remember I couldn’t even read by that time.


The intp all-or-nothing thinking could be a good explanation. It makes me come to think of how perfect I want something to be before I share it with others. This is particularly true with my thoughts. I may be comforting myself by dreaming I am somehow perfect.

 

[WittyUsername]

Well I'm like you too. Always dreaming of being the guy who discovers superconductivity at room temperature or some ingenious technique to enable controlled fusion. But I find it difficult to sit down and open my textbooks and study and solve problems for hours.

Usually I set goals which will be economically beneficial for me so that I can travel and pursue as many things I can. The tough part is reaching where money is. After that its all about managing people. Thats what I think.

Haven't really given thought to relationships because most girls around me are "let-me-put-my-cleavage-on-facebook" type.

 

[nexion]

But I’m not complaining much. Most of the time, I’m fine dreaming. Intpness also has advantages for me. Like, I never had to do much to succeed at school or university. And I entertain myself easily.

Really? I can only barely consider those advantages as having weight when considering all the flaws I can see in myself (MBTI INTP)... I think I would actually much rather be a J type oftentimes.

Where do you find a purpose in your life? Do you have a reason to wake up every day? Would you prefer to stay in bed and dream you are a semi god of war? Has the reality of life disappointed you to the point you reject it?

Of course, "rejection of reality isn't healthy" and all that, but aside from that, yeah, I'm sure I have a tendency to neglect my immediate physical environment and what I am expected to do... I would often much rather simply introvert entirely and live within my own imagination, but the lack of information and stimulation would get quite boring after a while.

Reality is reality... perhaps it doesn't altogether disappoint me, what does disappoint me is that other people made me expect differently and built up my hopes for some sadistic reason. I have about reached the point, save for periods of brief and intense stimulation, where nihilism and deep introspection are about all I have left. Eh... regularly interacting with others and staying in touch with the physical reality around me just doesn't seem so important...

Words have a tendency to be abundant, but also have a tendency to mean little. I doubt mutual understanding can ever truly be reached.

 

[AlisaD]

I used to do a lot of the dreaming when I was younger. Now, not so much any more.

Now, I mostly just choose to see reality in a way makes it possible to enjoy it. Still, I can completely relate to the whole:
"I just wish I had goals like becoming an engineer. Since I am one, I don’t know what to do with myself."

Replace engineer with "assistant director" or "business analyst" and you got the story of my working life.
I constantly have the same problem of trying to find a nice dead-end job that doesn't require a lot of thinking, getting it and then being bored to death, then being constantly promoted trough no fault of my own and ending up having a really great job I never really wanted and trying to figure out a way to just do nothing and not starve. Eventually I give up, save some money, quite the great job I never really wanted, enjoy freedom until I spend all the money. Repeat.

But, other then the fact that it requires a sacrifice of 40 hours of my week (which is just horrible) I like living in reality, mostly because it turns out to be weirder then anything I could imagine. I proceed to live in hope that it will turn out to be weird enough to allow me to live in it without having to work. Actually, I hope that it will turn out to be weird enough to allow me to live without having to do anything other then breathe and eat.