Lurker here 
After reading about 5000 posts I figured it was time for an intro thread. I'm 23 M and from SA, Australia. My hobbies include composing electronic music and consuming information.
On with the usual INTP sob story! I was the "star child" in primary school, the teachers loved me and I was constantly told that I was very bright. In the final year of primary (age 12), I was asked to do the MBTI and an IQ test. I scored INTP and got offered a scholarship into high school with an accelerated path into University. I've tested INTP over 20 times since then. I didn't end up taking the scholarship, opting to go to the high school where my friends were going instead.
Things went downhill quickly upon starting high school. I hated it, bombed out in grades, started playing video games constantly and dropped out when I was 16. From then until now I've been screwing around achieving pretty much fuck all and being trapped inside my own head. I've started about 6 courses and had a fair few jobs, all of which lasted no longer than a few months.
I've become interested in MBTI recently because I feel very alienated from people and I feel that it's halted my progression in life. I'm hoping to gain some insight and a general "it gets better" from older INTPs. I've been feeling particularly insane this year, internally I'm constantly alternating between feeling bigheaded and suicidal. Reading about other INTP's has made me feel a bit better. The similarity is absolutely uncanny, one of the users here even has a print I have on my wall (found from scrolling through hundreds of pages on deviantart) as their avatar
What are the odds of that?
I'm sure you'll also appreciate the beautiful mess that is my desk.
The main things bothering me at the moment are lack of a partner and losing interest in things too quickly. I actually managed to get my first girlfriend last year - which was mainly mediocre and quite awkward. I needed large amounts of alone time which resulted in me often ignoring texts for days, I'm sure you can guess what happened. After that I had another thing with a girl who I suspect to be an ENFx. I was being very drunk, weird and sarcastic at a party, and claiming that I was gay. Naturally, every girl there was repulsed by me except this girl who seemed amused. I had sex with her shortly after. Even after these events, I still don't have any confidence with women(or people). I've still got extreme social anxiety. I don't see myself having a meaningful relationship anytime soon and don't even know if it's possible to have one being like I am. I've never felt anything close to "love" in these situations. Even so, I'm feeling terribly lonely at the moment and this is occupying most of my thought.
I started uni again this semester, bachelor of IT this time. It was going so well, genuinely enjoying it etc until a few days ago when I lost interest immediately for no apparent reason. I really want to finish this degree, what do I do?
oh, and i look forward to chatting with you guys. didn't really convey what I wanted to in this post but I'd be analysing it for hours otherwise
After reading about 5000 posts I figured it was time for an intro thread. I'm 23 M and from SA, Australia. My hobbies include composing electronic music and consuming information.On with the usual INTP sob story! I was the "star child" in primary school, the teachers loved me and I was constantly told that I was very bright. In the final year of primary (age 12), I was asked to do the MBTI and an IQ test. I scored INTP and got offered a scholarship into high school with an accelerated path into University. I've tested INTP over 20 times since then. I didn't end up taking the scholarship, opting to go to the high school where my friends were going instead.
Things went downhill quickly upon starting high school. I hated it, bombed out in grades, started playing video games constantly and dropped out when I was 16. From then until now I've been screwing around achieving pretty much fuck all and being trapped inside my own head. I've started about 6 courses and had a fair few jobs, all of which lasted no longer than a few months.
I've become interested in MBTI recently because I feel very alienated from people and I feel that it's halted my progression in life. I'm hoping to gain some insight and a general "it gets better" from older INTPs. I've been feeling particularly insane this year, internally I'm constantly alternating between feeling bigheaded and suicidal. Reading about other INTP's has made me feel a bit better. The similarity is absolutely uncanny, one of the users here even has a print I have on my wall (found from scrolling through hundreds of pages on deviantart) as their avatar
What are the odds of that?
I'm sure you'll also appreciate the beautiful mess that is my desk.
The main things bothering me at the moment are lack of a partner and losing interest in things too quickly. I actually managed to get my first girlfriend last year - which was mainly mediocre and quite awkward. I needed large amounts of alone time which resulted in me often ignoring texts for days, I'm sure you can guess what happened. After that I had another thing with a girl who I suspect to be an ENFx. I was being very drunk, weird and sarcastic at a party, and claiming that I was gay. Naturally, every girl there was repulsed by me except this girl who seemed amused. I had sex with her shortly after. Even after these events, I still don't have any confidence with women(or people). I've still got extreme social anxiety. I don't see myself having a meaningful relationship anytime soon and don't even know if it's possible to have one being like I am. I've never felt anything close to "love" in these situations. Even so, I'm feeling terribly lonely at the moment and this is occupying most of my thought.
I started uni again this semester, bachelor of IT this time. It was going so well, genuinely enjoying it etc until a few days ago when I lost interest immediately for no apparent reason. I really want to finish this degree, what do I do?
oh, and i look forward to chatting with you guys. didn't really convey what I wanted to in this post but I'd be analysing it for hours otherwise
