Mania

[volitionfree]

Hey everyone, new account but long time lurker here.

I wasn't exactly sure where to put this post, as I'm asking mainly about subjective experience rather than strictly neuroscientific observation.

My question is if any of you have experienced a full blown manic episode, and how you interpreted the experience afterwards?
I've had five, and they have always been sparked by a huge part of my perceived identity being recognized as not so concrete and natural and then vanishing.
My theory then is, although crude and poorly developed, is that manic episodes are primarily psychological/spiritual and the physiological stuff is the brain's reaction to the immense joy that you feel at first.
The of course it goes bananas but I argue that this is because we live in a society so oversaturated with language and definitions that you can't really express what you feel, and you get frustrated and legitimately sick.
This is of course pretty much only based on my own experience. A lot of stuff I haven't experienced like spending sprees or a messiah complex.

I'm not good with prose so I'll end it here. I would love to hear from some bipolar INTP's since the only ones in my support group are SP types.

 

[Ex-User (5841)]

Oh hai thar!

When manic you're superman. It's only a problem because it goes away.

 

[crippli]

Maybe. Sometimes I feel like my mind is racing and I get much more energy. One wonder if one have become insane, but maybe self reflection isn't part of this? Maybe it's during those episodes where you get the impression that those who have been in contact with you become lobotomized, and are now more like broken dolls If so, It could be a security system that kicks in, when what one care about is in danger. Sort of a life line to pull one over the water again (and the others under). The times where whole systems crumbles to dust when you direct your gaze towards them, due to betrayal or otherwise are corrupted, and so have upset you. The times when the Hammer of Zeus make judgments, sentence and execution.

Your mind connects through the entire web, both invisible and visible threads unfold completely, giving you the full picture of the situation for the first time. Maybe it is then a gift, instead of just being run over. You are handed tools to instigate change.

 

[Lot]

Mania is great! But it scare the shit out of me. I know it is going to end and feeling that good seems unnatural. On the other hand, I like myself as a person when I'm all hyper and jazzed up. It makes me feel like I'm a teenager again. Life becomes more exciting.

I wonder if manic episodes could be related to our extroverted functions taking more of a front seat. I tend to be more outwardly focused in those times.

 

[DrGregoryHouse]

hope you enjoy! I know I did:

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[Ex-User (5841)]

Herein lies the difference between mania and PCP...

 

[Lot]

That video brings back the painful memories of my younger brother's drug induced insanity.

 

[Cherry Cola]

hope you enjoy! I know I did:

LiveLeak.com - EXCITED DELIRIUM !!!!

While some of it was fun there were some really tragic stuff in that video.
For instance, I have a hard time laughing at a guy frantically banging his head against the walls in panic while handcuffed in the back of a police truck, and then breaking down in tears saying "I want my mum.." over and over.

 

[DrGregoryHouse]

While some of it was fun there were some really tragic stuff in that video.
For instance, I have a hard time laughing at a guy frantically banging his head against the walls in panic while handcuffed in the back of a police truck, and then breaking down in tears saying "I want my mum.." over and over.

I don't know if I laugh at those specific situations. Enjoyment doesn't necessarily involve laughter. Interesting and fascinating, though.

pretty sure this didn't make it in there. One of the all time best:

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[DIALECTIC]

I speculate mania / hypomania is Spirit forcing one's mind / body into fast paced evolution in order to catch up with our external / internal personal evolutionary process... Problem is some people don't know how to sublimate / polarize all the extra energy !

The depression afterwards is simply how we perceive the change in evolutionary speed.


I also speculate chronic depression is Spirit forcing one's mind / body to slow the fuck down when our internal / external personal evolutionary process is too far ahead ! Problem is some people end up unconsciously enjoying depression and feeling sorry for themselves so they get stuck in that loop rather than doing their outmost to get out of it !