Rudolph Mondal
Banned
It's a magical night and I'm here sitting before my laptop, wondering what will become of my life. I need people to hear me out. I feel lonely. Apologies in advance.
I miss the old days some 7-8-9-10 years ago when I was so full of ambition. Oy vey!
I wanted to become a theoretical physicist, a molecular biologist, a cognitive psychologist.
But now?
Now I'm stuck in limbo. I do my engineering stuff just fine, pass 'em and all. It's not too bad, and the humanities class keeps me alive.
I'm a shadow of my former self. The light within has dimmed. I feel as if my time is up, but alas! I'm only 21!
I think I might be a masochist, perhaps. I whine, but I don't do anything to change. Maybe I enjoy being sad, wallowing in self-pity.
Tell me what do I do now?
I miss being me.
I miss the old days some 7-8-9-10 years ago when I was so full of ambition. Oy vey!
I wanted to become a theoretical physicist, a molecular biologist, a cognitive psychologist.
But now?
Now I'm stuck in limbo. I do my engineering stuff just fine, pass 'em and all. It's not too bad, and the humanities class keeps me alive.
I'm a shadow of my former self. The light within has dimmed. I feel as if my time is up, but alas! I'm only 21!
I think I might be a masochist, perhaps. I whine, but I don't do anything to change. Maybe I enjoy being sad, wallowing in self-pity.
Tell me what do I do now?
I miss being me.