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I've heard that argument before. In fact I came across it recently in the form of pyrrhonism, which I had never heard of before this week. It's actually uncanny how closely you have echoed what I read:
Awesome! I never knew of this school of thought. I looked it up. It describes my position pretty well. That is what I like about these conversations. You get to learn a thing or two. Since I been a member I have had to look up many words and all sorts of concepts I wasn't aware of.

On the other hand, I feel driven to denounce various models. While no one can ever quite be 100% sure of anything (maybe God is messing with the detectors at the LHC), I don't like the paralysis that comes of refusing to reject what seems ridiculous.
In all things you seek balance. I too denounce religion. But my denunciation is based on their modalities of thought about themselves. I lower myself to their standard reasoning but in my heart I will be the Pyrrhonist. E.g. I can go along fine with someone like Pat Condell, who is very outspoken about the folly of religion. But I make no mistake to think that this is my level of thought on these matters. The conclusion may sometimes be the same between him and I but my reasoning differs.
Hm, not sure if I got that very clear here.
Is astrology a model? If so, you and I must disagree. I could perhaps, if I really tried, write a nice thorough defense of astrology and make it sound pretty good, just like, I suppose, Ken Ham did about as good as a creationist could hope to do in his debate against Bill Nye. But maybe I am misunderstanding you.
Dunno these people. Is this similar to a discussion between a religious person and Richard Dawkins I once saw? Is astrology a model? Hmm. My inclination (is there a oun there?) is to say yes. It is a mode of thinking, it follows a type of reasoning, that is within itself consistent, yet maybe not logical. But logic and reason are two different things.
But my definition of a model my not be yours?
There are connections between religions because... how could there not be? On closer inspection, though, one finds that religions are not even slightly compatible. In fact most of them command that a person be killed for choosing a different one.
If you look at religions as complete concepts I see patterns between them. If you study details about what these people believe, there are differences. Religions are systems of thought that are driven by a human need for existential answers. Science does it another way, but that is only a few hundred years old. Before that science was still imbued with the idea that matter also had spirit in it, to summarize it. It was only with Descartes that matter and spirit became separated. And he got that from a dream in which an angel appeared to him :-)
Religion is about as correct as 2 + 2 = 5. I have a marked preference for 2 + 2 = 4, just like I have one for atheism.
But like I said in OP, I actually did used to be much more similar to you. I saw connections between religions as sure proof there must be something to them, and I indeed became a Zen Buddhist for roughly 5 years--full blown, too. I meditated daily, strict zazen style, and I would go to a Zen service every week for a while. Also read many books and watched hundreds of hours worth of teaching videos.
You amaze me with your discipline. I could never engage myself so fully. It must be rewarding and yet it seemed to have dissatisfied you in the long run. Maybe that is because any, ANY model one can follow ultimately falls before the Pyrrhonistic Persuasion? :-)
Because how do you balance one model out when you exclude all others? When you engage in one model deeply, it needs to be offset because the content of a model is only valid to itself, within that model.
Within that model there may be elegance and paradoxes and equilibrium, but as a whole, where do you place it?
For the sake of brevity I didn't mention any of that in the OP, but it was at the heart of everything. I was on the quest for enlightenment, which I increasingly saw as synonymous with God. What led to my great depression was, in fact, a total, all consuming effort toward constant meditation. I shut all externals out of my life. I even quit my job. I refused to even read or watch TV, and I wouldn't even speak to my family, let alone friends.
It is safe to say that I took Zen Buddhism to its full conclusion, and came up empty handed. If you're thinking about getting into it, I'd say don't bother. You're not going to get enlightened. You're not going to get anything. And I'm not even being elusive and paradoxical here. It's literally pointless. Far better to pursue something of this world.
That is why I don't bother too much with specifics and content. I still wonder what went wrong. Not all Zen people come to a conclusion like yours. Is it possible one reads and studies something deeply yet fails to see the point?
Are you certain you are not confusing your won conclusion :-) I'd day, if you come to realize that a system of knowledge is futile, you are quite wise to me. In the end it is about the process, not the specifics. A Zen Master would be proud you finally understood that the whole approach to enlightenment in the end is nothing but - insert farting sound here.
I have limited in-depth knowledge of Zen. Most of what I know comes from Alan Watts. Hours and hours of listening to mp3's.
Superstition will be the death of you. You're incredibly superstitious if you are even a tiny bit superstitious, it is an all-or-nothing sort of belief. That little seed could start a wild-fire, and do serious damage. I literally quit my career on superstition, and can't go back now. I spent 27 years being "a little superstitious." When it started to matter, though, I let myself fall off a cliff. It dominated my life. Almost killed me, too.
Ask your old Zen buddies if using your own experience as a measuring rod is wise. I am not afraid of wild fires of the imagination. I look at reality and I get a flash of derealization. It is all surrealistic to me. I am watching a play being all the actors. All the world is a stage, said Shakespeare, right?
Why feel bad about quitting a career? Is a career that wonderful? What value has a career? If you quit it to follow an interest, it cannot have been that special. Are you sure you are not in hindsight doing a revaluation?
I know how to see God. You go to Kroger's and get a bottle of Robitussin and chug it. Then you wait 2 hours and smoke some weed while lying down in a dark room. God will appear. Been there, seen it. It was undeniable, nothing else it could have been. Problem is, it was still just an experience of God. If God is just a headspace I can't get into while sober, I have little interest in it. I have seen the "spiritual" experiences of many psychedelics and I am interested for science to one day map them and open their doors.
I have no doubt that science will forever fail to map the psychedelic experience. You should not externalize god. You are god. Your human eyes are flawed. Hence, god is flawed, prone to our own misconceptions. Of course god is a headspace, but you make it sounds like that is a disappointment! HGow else with you come to go?
With angels singing, flapping their wings, heavenly choirs?

Do you really want to live in a cosmos where god is real? Where he is so provable and omni-present that wherever you go, you will 'feel' his presence?
Descartes and his kin worked really really hard to push god back out of matter into the unknown! Do you wanna bring him back here?
God would be like one of these cartoon mini rain clouds following you around. Or a sun, if you like. I want spirituality back in science. Not god. God is but a part of spirituality.
I think you need to give yourself a break. You are wiser than you think. You are bigger than the Zen model. Don't be dissapointed 'it didn't work out for you'. It did exactly what it was supposed to do.
Welcome to enlightenment! Is it everything you hoped for? What did you expect to achieve? Sit on a mountain in white robe with a glowing aura around you? Or were you secretly believing that you needed to study Zen until death? And then some?
Nah, some people never get where you are. People don't get what enlightenment is. It is not a state you reach, never to lose it again and no, you cannot levitate either.
I'll write about it, find that.